you're depressed.
i read the other forum's thread as well.
actually, i only signed up here to post about this...
as everyone has said, time will heal. it doesn't seem that way but it does. most people have been where you are now.
myself, i was totally in love with one of my bestfriend's femal friends. totally stunned by her. beautiful, personality, funny, everything in common, and was totally drawn to her. all that. there was chemistry between us, but she was from another state, and was 17 at the time, i was 20. didn't think it was fair to start a relationship with her. anyway, next time she was up here, she got involved with another of my friends... broke my heart.
anyway, couldn't think about anything for ages. but you do get over her.
from what i've read. you should talk to your parents.
it's amazing when you look back on how you used to feel and how you do later on.