HostGhost-
Actually you were more than correct in your analysis of what I was trying to explain or the lack of having something to explain.
And your network of friends to discuss things to no end if need be is a wonderful thing indeed, I don't won't to make this sound like: me, I , myself : but I only have my spouse to have intelligent conversations with.
By my choice or how I was raised "friends" doesn't really exist for me.
I can't always expect her to do everything for me.
Yes, that's another reason I enjoy anime. It's an outlet and an escape.
Basically because I'm always contemplating things I (and sometimes the spouse) wonder if the way I think was manifested for myself or are there other people out there that think the same way I do even though their lives are much different than my own.
Tsubasa-
No joke cause it wouldn't be funny. I also use to lay or sit somewhere thinking about things for hours with no real goal or purpose. And by the time I was done I was know better off than if I would have simply forgotten whatever it was I pondered so diligently about...
Not much more can be said, expect I wrote an brief explanation about this on my personal blog...way too lengthy and troublesome even for the "anything thread"
Well Thanks for reading and you know I will respond if you have your own input,